(Rare) Moment of Vulnerability

Evil

it was relatively late in the evening. i was online, doing some work-related emails. and xtian IMs me. a good 80% of our IM conversations are basically:

"woooooooooooo!"

but in a rare moment of vulnerability, i asked xtian via IM, what will happen to me once he has a steady, caring girlfriend? where does that leave me? so sad.